Im tired of being terrified of the world, the world might seen like a vile place at first but sice i have started to overcome my traumas, my insecurities, my self-sabotaging mind, we all need time to heal and now i am
now fully aware of it.
Therapy has slowly saved me from potentially ending up in a unfunctional state, both physically and mentally and i plan to keep going.
I feel like i've finally gained some of basic sentience and despite still being terrified of the world, i will still try to improve and work for my well-being.
Fear left me paralyzed, unable to act as anxiety heavily limited my life experience, but not anymore.
Don't forget that in the end being brave isn't about having no fear, its about doing what you must willingly despite being terrified.
You can mock me any malicious way you intend to, i am no longer affected by something so trivial like a videogame, i enjoy life, have a loving family and a whole web of support to pick myself up from if i end up falling, now the real question is, what do you get from coming here, not reading all of this, and complaining about something so unimportant like being idle in an online multiplayer match? or even disconnecting, does it seen like something so important? are you aware that you're simply acting like the cholesteatoma that was on my skull all along and got surgically removed to raise my life expectancy?
Go ahead, your comment will just be a reminder of my past self, inmature, annoying and most importantly unaware, i might still be worthless in life, but i just don't care anymore.

The malevolence of humans will NOT extinguish this spark, starting now and for the rest of my life.

TLDR: Don't care what you have to say about me because my behavior, i've finally grown up some thicker skin