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Make me your marionette. Take control, my life just a set.

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"You will look like a damn barbie doll if you wear that dumb purple and drive that stupid purple car"
~My ex

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If you gave me something to believe in, could I do the same?
I just wanted you to stay
It's been such a long time without your love
Did you ever love me the way that I loved you?
Maybe it's 'cause I'm not enoughYou broke me, made me lose myself
I wanted love but it’s never the same
If you find a reason I would say it Cause I loved you

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Genuinely, I cared. I loved you, and wanted to give you my world. I don't know why you had to leave, being abandoned is all I've ever known, but I thought this was different. I know you don't smile, but I hope you atleast remember me fondly. I hope the happiness I tried to bring you blooms one day, I hope you can one day smile again, I wish I could see you smile just once more. What we had then felt amazing, you were the only one that ever cared. It hurts living without you, I'm just alone now, you're all I ever had, since the day we first met you always made me happy. I'm sorry for your past, I'm sorry I wasn't always there. I didn't know. I wish I knew, I wish you had told me and I could've done something sooner. I just wanted to be happy, I wish it never had to end. I'd tell you I'm okay, but you could always read me like a book so, I'll just be honest. I miss you, everything feels empty here alone, and I.. I really don't want to be here anymore.

I still think about you every day. relationships feel hollow because they aren't you, they could never be you. I can't move on, I can't replace what we had. I don't want to. I just want you back, I want to be happy again. If I could be with you just once more, I want my time with you to be my last memory.

I still cry every day. Every time i pass that window. I can't go where we used to go, the memories are too painful. I wish i was there, wish i showed you how much I cared. I would've brought you with me, i would've given everything to keep you here. That day was the worst day of my life, and every day spent is hollow without you. I hope you're at peace, but I miss you so fking much.

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If you think my bios about you, it's not. fk you you're not that special

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