Undecember is so baaad omfg omfg frfr, I actually though to myself last month "I could cry with happiness and not feel bad because at least I won't be depressed and worry what people will think."

I swear it's the worst month of the year for me.
I don't do depression, I try to hide it, and I can't handle feeling as low as I feel this month, and it's only the 4th one, wtf.
I have had more bad days than good ones this month, it's been pretty rough.

And by that I mean that I've felt like a robot.
I really hope I'm not losing myself in all of this.

One of my biggest fears is that I have too many emotions and I don't know how to deal with them.
I don't know how to put them into words and that makes me