A little miss who feels herself slipping away again, pretending not to care because she’s convinced she’s healed already since it’s been half a year now.. when in reality, she’s just been keeping herself busy, too distracted to cry her heart out. She fears love and trust are gone and may never visit again, a weight that presses heavily on her already fragile heart.
She wishes she could finally move on, knowing there are so many people out there to love, yet she’s stuck. She feels ashamed, she blames herself for being so naive, for letting it all happen, for getting hurt so deeply. She has failed to protect herself.
But I hope she can forgive herself. She deserves far more than she allows herself to believe, and she is worthy of the love she’s been longing for since forever. One day, I hope she sees that. One day, I hope she feels it. Her tears WON’T fall in vain, that much I can tell her.

you have a brave heart

Healing alone doesn’t seem to be enough for me- I feel like I need my memory erased. Lately, it feels like I’m reverting to a default state, and I’ve avoided journaling because I don’t want to dwell on everything that hurts me. I want to move forward, and I’ve been trying, but lately, I’ve been feeling down again. I think it’s tied to something unresolved, a lack of closure. Even though certain actions offer some closure, my feelings remain undeniable. I know I have to accept them, and someday I will be fully free. Maybe not today, but someday. I don’t want to cry anymore this year.. I hope next year will bring only happy tears. I want to create a better environment, find trust again, and remember that not everyone is out to hurt me. It’s hard to trust right now, and that makes me feel bad. Growing up is chaotic, but I’m trying to be hopeful for what lies ahead:) Voices 1, me 0.

+rep! ggwp!

“So even if you are sad, mad, disappointed or frustrated you should always know there are a lot of people out there who would do anything you need to feel better, just like you would do!” 🤍….🖤