pls add me

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⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⡿⣿⣿⣿⣿⠿⠿⣿⣿⡟⠛⢿⣿⣿⠇⡀⢹⣆⠰⠿⠛⣉⣻⣿⣿
⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⢹⣿⠿⠛⢉⣡⣽⡿⠋⣠⣿⣿⠟⠁⣠⣶⡀⢻⡇⠀⠈⢿⠏⢠⣿⡀⢻⡄⣶⡿⠟⢻⣿⣿
⣿⣿⣿⣿⠉⢿⣏⢻⣿⣿⣿⣿⢸⡀⠴⠞⠛⢙⣿⣀⣈⡙⠛⠿⠀⢸⣿⠿⠁⠘⣃⢀⠂⠀⣰⣿⣿⣇⣀⣧⣤⣴⣾⣿⣿⣿
⣿⣿⣿⡿⠰⠘⢿⣆⢻⡇⠈⠏⢸⣷⠠⣶⡿⠟⢿⣿⣿⠿⠟⢂⣴⡤⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⢿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿
⣿⣿⣿⠁⣴⡆⢻⣿⡄⠁⣼⣄⣼⣿⣄⣠⣴⣾⣿⣿⣿⣷⣾⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿
⣿⣿⣿⣠⣿⣷⣾⣿⣿⣶⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⠀⡄⠤⢤⠠⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⡄⠖⠘⠈⠚⠞⢅⠄
⠀⠔⠎⢁⠱⠑⠥⣁⠀⡄⠀⠀⠄⠉⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠃⠇
⢐⠅⣐⠃⠀⠀⠀⠀⠒⣄⡰⠉⠇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠡⢉⠀
⠠⡡⠂⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠉⠫⡅⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠂⡂⠀⠀
⠀⠱⢅⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠄⡒⠁⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠍⠱⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⡀⠔⠁⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠈⠠⠈⠙⡔⠠⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠠⠌⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠁⠂⡀⠉⠎⡂⠄⠀⠀⠀⡠⠍⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠁⠢⠌⡙⣧⡢⡰⠃⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠉⡿⠅⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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My mom deserves a better daughter, and my friends.. well they surely have better friends anyway. I can only relate to sadness, no amount of happy music can make me feel happy. Emotional pain is curved deeply in my bones. Why can't I at least figure it out so someone someday could have a more meaningful and fulfilling life. I feel punished by the things I desired the most throughout my life, such as family, love.. it hurts all the same and it rejects me. I'm just a lunatic at this point. @ Universe, please, grant me at least a wish to be cold hearted and to fully stop giving ♥♥♥♥ about anyone, I don't want to care anymore not even for a second. Let me be empty, I will have a better chance at living.