Taking all Tryouts must be comp

Starting to feel a loneliness, a loneliness that only a woman can fix. I am talking to myself more then anybody in my day and it is making me mental. I feel alone sometimes even with company right next to me, I dont know what it is, im starting to become bitter, unhappy. The companionship im looking for wont find itself to me for some time, I truly believe that, Now will i again put a bandaid on this problem by finding any women to distract me from this pain, Give everything to another woman just for it to end in Ashes within months, with me miserable every second of it, I wonder if i am like this because i have no girl, or because i am just miserable things will always be like this, I want to create better life, A clan my members will be proud to be apart of one day, I need to become A better MAN first.