6 gorillian but only 200k

OH MY GOD
I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE
I CANT HANG WITH ANY OF U THEN AT ALL
IM NOT PART OF UR GANG
SURE I TALK
BUT IM NOT
♥♥♥♥
I CANT TAKE THIS ♥♥♥♥ ANYMORE
IM NOT ONE OF THEM
I JUST WANT TO RELAX
IM TIRED OF GETTING ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ON WITH U GUYS
EVERY TIME
IM TIRED OF JEFF BEING A COMPLETE ♥♥♥♥ TO ME
IM TIRED OF ALL OF THIS

I wear a mask with a smile for hours at a time
Stare at the ceiling while I hold back what's on my mind
And when they ask me how I'm doing
I say, "I'm just fine"
And when they ask me how I'm doing
I say, "I'm just fine"
But the fact is
I can never get off of my mattress
And all that they can ask is
"Why are you so sad, kid?" (Why are you so sad, kid?)
That's what the mask is
That's what the point of the mask is
So you can see I'm tryin'
You won't see me cryin'
I'll just keep on smilin', I'm good (yeah, I'm good)
And it just keeps on pilin'
It's so terrifying
But I keep on smilin', I'm good (yeah, I'm good)
I've been carin' too much for so long
Been comparin' myself for so long
Been wearin' a smile for so long, it's real
So long, it's real, so long, it's real
Always bein' judged by a bunch of strange faces
Scared to go outside, haven't seen the light in ages
But I've been places
So I'm okay-ish, so I'm okay-ish
Yeah, I'm okay, ♥♥♥♥♥
But the fact is

⣿⣯⣿⣿⣿⣶⣶⣶⣶⣤⣤⣤⣀
⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣷
　　⠈⠻⣿⡛⠉⠭⠉⠉⢉⣿⣿⣧
⠲⣶⠖⠄⠄⢿⣿⠄⠶⣶⣾⣿⣿⣿⣿⣧
　　　⠺⢿⡗⠄⣹⣿⣿⠿⣟⣿⡏
　　　　⠤⠤⢾⣿⣿⣿⣦⠘⡿
　　⠈⢻⡿⣷⣶⣶⣤⣤⣤⣶⣦
　　　⣽⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⡟
　　　⠘⠿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿
　　　　　⠉⠉⠛⠋⠉⠁

pretty sus

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⣠⣴⣶⣿⠿⢿⣶⣶⣦⣄⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣼⡿⠋⠁⠀⠀⠀⢀⣈⠙⢿⣷⡄⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⣿⠁⠀⢀⣴⣿⠿⠿⠿⠿⠿⢿⣷⣄⠀
⠀⢀⣀⣠⣾⣿⡇⠀⣾⣿⡄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠹⣧
⣾⡿⠉⠉⣿⠀⡇⠀⠸⣿⡌⠓⠶⠤⣤⡤⠶⢚⣻⡟
⣿⣧⠖⠒⣿⡄⡇⠀⠀⠙⢿⣷⣶⣶⣶⣶⣶⢿⣿⠀
⣿⡇⠀⠀⣿⡇⢰⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠉⠉⠉⠁⠀ ⠀⣿⠀
⣿⡇⠀⠀⣿⡇⠈⡄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⢀⣿⣿⠀
⣿⣷⠀⠀⣿⡇⠀⠘⠦⣄⣀⣀⣀⣀⣀⡤⠊⠀⣿⠀
⢿⣿⣤⣀⣿⡇⠀⠀⠀⢀⣀⣉⡉⠁⣀⡀⠀⣾⡟⠀
⠀⠉⠛⠛⣿⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⡟⣿⡟⠋⠀⢰⣿⠃⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⣿⣧⠀⠀⠀⢀⣿⠃⣿⣇⠀⢀⣸⡯⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠹⢿⣶⣶⣶⠿⠃⠀⠈⠛⠛⠛⠛'