I'm sorry I broke your faith in me but I wish you would trust me one last time
I wish you would hold me close and come dance with me under the stars
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The songs you listen to hurt me so much
It makes me want to stay away from you
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You know, when someone goes through trauma, it changes them
Just like you, it happened to me too
Our relationship and break up changed me
I'm trying my best to grow in the right direction and be a great girlfriend and wonderful wife one day
I don't ♥♥♥♥ around with random people, I've learned that hyposexuality is an illness and it can be treated
No one gets to touch me anymore, only the person I trust gets to have me
I don't want to be hurt or abused by anyone
I'm a soft wholesome relationship girly and I'm waiting for my knight in shining armour, so we can make each others days a little better and experience life together
That's my only goal in life
Not money or superficial stuff
I want someone who accepts me, and loves me for me
I want to find my person and dedicate my life to taking care of them and giving them everything I never had growing up
and the next person I date is going to get this better version of me and I hope I can be the best they've ever had. I wanted that person to be you, after all the hurt you've been through, you deserve the most love, and you captured my heart in a way that no one else ever has before
I've opened up to you and I've been vulnerable on my public profile for you
You just won't allow me to repent or heal from that trauma
You want to shut me out and pretend I'm dead
Okay chill, that's totally fine, I respect how you feel and I'll disappear just like you want me to
I guess "forever" was just a word, and I didn't really mean as much as to you as I thought I did
I don't want to sit here feeling like ♥♥♥♥ anymore
Life is too beautiful and I want to enjoy the time I have left with the people I care about the most
I'm working hard on bettering my life and my mindset, so what happened between us never happens ever again, with you or anyone else
I want someone who supports me in my personal growth and wants to see me succeed
Just like I did for you
When we broke up, and even now, I still wish you the best in your life
Even though you hurt me too and made me cry multiple times
I don't have any hate in my heart for you because I understand that you never intentionally meant to hurt me, you just made really silly mistakes that are forgivable, and I possess that power
I've already forgiven you for the things you've done and for things you might do in the future
Even the way you're treating me now, I'm not angry or upset with you, I've already forgiven you
I believe we're both human beings and I believe we both make mistakes sometimes
I believe you deserve a voice and you're entitled to your thoughts and how you feel
I believe we're both trying to do what we think is the best thing to do
I'm just disappointed that our story has ended because I had hope and I believed what we had was real
I'm also sad that we never had the chance to say a real goodbye
True love is me wanting you to be happy, even if it's not with me

p.s. I took those photos of myself and put them as my pfp just for you, even tho it makes me feel uncomfortable
I did it just in case you missed me and I wanted to put the effort in to look cute for you
I don't care to impress anyone else, I'm not interested in meeting anyone new anytime soon
I'm your only follower on spotify, and I can see how much you're hurting
I don't want to be the reason you're in pain anymore, I don't want to hurt you anymore
You're the only man I've ever felt comfortable being on my knees for, and you're the only person who allowed me to be myself
No one will ever replace you, and I will always choose to remember the good times we had together
Your last wish is granted My King, I'll focus on rebuilding my broken self
Just remember you are always welcome in my life, and we can talk if you ever decide you want to
I will eternally miss you

If you ever feel sad or alone, just remember that someone out there thought you were something really special