banned in rust + vac'd in cs. god bless america, ♥♥♥♥ iniuria


In my past I said disgusting things to people and I am so ashamed of myself for using racist rhetoric and derogatory language to hurt others because I knew what that word meant and I understood the power behind it but I said it anyway because it was the meanest thing I could think of and I am so sorry to everyone, but especially to those in the black community because only you guys can forgive me for this and there is no excuse and there are no justifications for what I said and you guys deserve better. And when I first saw the screenshots, I didn't even think that they were real because I forgot how hateful and how angry of a person I used to be and it hurts my soul knowing that I said those things. But the screenshots and the things I've said in the past are not a reflection of who I am today and I'm so grateful for the people in my life that I met after high school, in college and my previous job at tiktok who took their time to educate me on their experiences because listening to them was so powerful and a real reality check for me. So I want to take this time to take a step back and share my platform with some amazing black creators who are going to tell their story to try to educate others on the trauma that happens when we use this kind of language. I know that my words hurt people and I know that my words have consequences and that there is no immediate fix for my actions but I am so deeply sorry for all the pain that I've caused.