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on point with AWP

Firstly, I am neither black nor white, but I’ve got a white friend who always calls me the n word because my skin is brown, it’s not even dark, and I started saying it back. Now it sort of just slips out to whoever I’m talking too. Sometimes I’ll see someone and be like “sup n....”. On the first of november, I decided to also do no-n-word-november and i failed the first day because another friend was being annoying and the n-word just slipped out. How can i stop it? It’s become a habit and I want to get rid of it before It’s too late. I’m being dead serious, please help. Btw, I wouldn’t consider myself racist. Please give me some advice.

Where do you think this mindset’s gonna lead you? You think you’re funny, random, quirky even? What makes you think that acting like a ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ cat will make a ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ hyena laugh? I, personally, feel extremely sympathetic towards you as your only escape from the worthless thing you call your existence is to pretend to be an animal. But it’s not a worthy choice to assert this horrifying fact as a dominant trait, mainly because personality traits require an initial personality to lay their foundation on. You’re not worthy of anybody’s time, so go ♥♥♥♥ off, “cat-girl”.

Woww www, you meow like a cat! That means you are one, right? Shut the ♥♥♥♥ up. If you really want to be put on a leash and treated like a domestic animal then that’s called a fetish, not “quirky” or “cute”. What part of you seriously thinks that any part of acting like a feline establishes a reputation of appreciation? Is it your lack of any defining aspect of personality that urges you to resort to ♥♥♥♥♥♥ representations of cats to create an illusion of meaning in your worthless life? Wearing “cat ears” in the shape of headbands further notes the complete absence of human attribution to your false sense of personality, such as intelligence or charisma in any form or shape.

♥♥♥♥ me im gonna cry, but like i'm gonna end it on a good note atleast, and when this is done i swear to god you or not else gonna be hearing from me again im gonna walk downstairs and get my life straight no val no mc anymore its all gone, so you can keep them at this rate but arguing is acc gonna make me do smthn bad. Do whatever u want with the gold, necklace accs all yours and il swear to ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ god i did love you. now if you choose to show this ♥♥♥♥ to snoway or whoever idre wont bother me, but lets be real nothing was gonna fix this and im being deadass straight i have cared and always did i'd just rather you knew or remembered me as the person who you loved and not hated cos that broke me. I see that them lot make u happy and ♥♥♥♥ and u dont get mad so i'm perfectly fine for u to pursue that and do whatever you want.
i know you want the acc for urself and you were right it was a gift, buit i swear to god i was never planning on stealing it