Hey friends. So if you're reading and actually care about my story then go ahead and read on, other than that if you don't care and after you read this you're just going to judge me stop right here and go do something else. So I have been through alot of hard times. I have lost many friends and family. I have had my heart broken many times. And even if I break up with someone they are always rude and negative back to me so really I am not sure. I have been bullied sence about 2nd grade to today. People judge me for how I look or what I do but that is how I started self harm. It isn't a good trait, it isn't something i'm proud of, but it's the truth. I have never told my parents about it nor will I ever anytime soon. I have changed alot sence 2nd grade and now i'm more independent and not so afraid of others and what they think, because I shouldn't have to change to please someone nor should I have to change to make them my friend. I learned that you don't get what you want but you have to earn it and work for it. I help alot of other people with their problems/issues and I'm always there for my friends in time of need. No one deserves pain or anything. I play games to feel better most of the time and take my mind of things. But my gaming life has slowly decreased because of harassement from other gamers (mostly boys), I have learned to deal with it, but I shouldn't have to. Recently I learned my father had throat cancer. He will be put through radiation and kemo therapy. Times are rough already and it only gets worse it seems. So if you're a true friend then you'll understand and won't judge. But if you aren't a true friend. You might aswell unadd me.