I abhor this game. I would've been such a better person if I didn't play this trash.

I could've had a better relationship with my family. I could have more friends. I could have had a better relationship with God. Career wise too, I would have focused on school more, I probably could have been set for the future better than I am now.
So much hours wasted on pointless grind. I have around 7000-10000 hours spanned on different accounts.

For the most part I did not enjoy this game.
At a certain point I played it so much I thought it was going to be my job to become a pro CS player. That's not how this world works. You don't get a stable income from just being a Pro cs player.
Past that point it was just escapism, since I did not work on things that a normal growing teenager should work on. I shut myself in my room and played this game until I finished secondary school.
Because of this I am perpetually dissatisfied with myself in real life. So much hours I took away from myself, especially from my developmental years. Today I still play this dog crap, even in its trashier state of CS2. Just maybe less.

I abhor this game. I would've been such a better person if I didn't play this trash. I could've had a better relationship with my family. I could have more friends. I could have had a better relationship with God. Career wise too, I would have focused on school more, I probably could have been set for the future better than I am now. So much hours wasted on pointless grind. I have around 7000-10000 hours spanned on different accounts. For the most part I did not enjoy this game. At a certain point I played it so much I thought it was going to be my job to become a pro CS player. That's not how this world works. You don't get a stable income from just being a Pro cs player. Past that point it was just escapism, since I did not work on things that a normal growing teenager should work on. I shut myself in my room and played this game until I finished secondary school. Because of this I am perpetually dissatisfied with myself in real life. So much hours I took away from myself, especially from my developmental years. Today I still play this dog crap, even in its trashier state of CS2. Just maybe less.