John Saxon (Миша)
Fyodor "Fyo-Dawg" Mihailovich   New Jersey, United States
 
 
When you reach a Dostoevskiyan state of apathy, nonchalance, depression, and listlessness, what's the next step? Are you at the final stage of some slow, brutal transformation of the psyche, and now must live with that mindset forever, as if you had reached some bitter form of enlightenment? Or, instead, must one try to start digging himself out of that pit before he's buried alive?

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"And so I ask myself: 'Where are your dreams?' And I shake my head and mutter: 'How the years go by!' And I ask myself again: 'What have you done with those years? Where have you buried your best moments? Have you really lived? Look,' I say to myself, 'how cold it is becoming all over the world!' And more years will pass and behind them will creep grim isolation. Tottering senility will come hobbling, leaning on a crutch, and behind these will come unrelieved boredom and despair. The world of fancies will fade, dreams will wilt and die and fall like autumn leaves from the trees. . . ."

"He became gloomy and depresed, and lost all his gaiety. His old lodging grew hateful to him - he took a new room. He did not care to visit the Artyomyevs, and indeed he could not. Two years later he met Lizanka in church. She was by then married; beside her walked a wet nurse with a tiny baby. They greeted each other, and for a long time avoided all mention of the past. Liza said that, thank God, she was happy, that she was not badly off, that her husband was a kind man and that she was fond of him... But suddenly in the middle of a sentence her eyes filled with tears, her voice failed, she turned away, and bowed down to the church pavement to hide her grief."

- F. Dostoevsky (trans. Constance Garnett)
Zap Rowsdower 7 Mar, 2018 @ 12:13pm 
I can't seem to add you off hand which I think is the only way I can message you on Steam off hand-- maybe you try?
John Saxon (Миша) 6 Mar, 2018 @ 11:54pm 
I'm absolutely intrigued that you've asked. I suppose so. Send me a message when next we're both online. I use Discord as well.
Zap Rowsdower 23 Feb, 2018 @ 8:46am 
Hey, it's Tim. Could I message you for a second when you get a chance?
Vicki D 11 Jun, 2013 @ 2:53am 
Back in good old america now you don't have to worry about the russian government just the NSA!
John Saxon (Миша) 10 Jun, 2013 @ 11:59pm 
Well da, but now I won't be talking from behind the Iron Curtain anymore.
Vicki D 31 May, 2013 @ 12:33am 
Comrade! I have missed your company! we must talk more da?