Lately my thoughts eating me alive
Laid in the bed thinking maybe the hate will finally go away if I’m not alive
Wish I didn’t listen just like I wish they would understand me one time
I had a breakdown and tatted my entire body except one line
Everything’s just fine
slipping again,
there I go slipping again,
I’m acting different again
I see my family’s reflection every time I look in the cup and I sip it again,
after this ends,
tell me after all this ends,
will I be mentioned again?
Why do I care? If in the end it’s just me and God, like I’m Christian again
Yea, Slim bring the beat in
Before my dad left this earth
He made sure I took on every quality I didn’t want
I was supposed to die at birth
Gave me a chance and I ♥♥♥♥♥♥ it up give me another one
I’ve been running from secrets I hid as a kid and I never confronted them
I just called mom,
Said I forgive her for not being there when I needed one
I’m coming back just let me go
I’m coming back just let me go, yea
I’m coming back, just let me go
I’m coming back, don’t let me go
Who am I when the music stops
And the character that I’ve been playing is really just broken and ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ lost
I swear I’ve been telling you over and over again in all these songs
But they don’t hear nothing I’m writing cause they’re too busy tryna write me off
And they go on and on and on
It’s funny cause if we just sat and talked
You’d see that it’s just hard for me to be vulnerable cause I blocked it off
I got trust issues, growing up no one was there to hear what I thought
My heart was broken like my ribs as a kid when me and my father fought
Yea, I’m medicating with something I cannot pronounce but it’s what the doctor gave me
Rehab patient with a pen and some paper the psychiatrist keeps evaluating
How can I live with the fact that my hand wasn’t on her stomach when we lost the baby
I don’t got no one to turn to cause everyone’s dead in my life that was tryna raise me
Searching for someone to tell me who I really am, I don’t know when I look in the mirror
Constantly dreading the day that the audience might not be screaming for me anymore
The feeling of dying alone and not leaving anything behind is my biggest fear
Kiss the person that I love as if I’m never coming back after I leave out the door
I’m coming back, just let me go (Feeling like)
I’m coming back, just let me go, yea
I’m coming back, just let me go
I’m coming back, don’t let me go
I’m coming back, just let me go
I’m coming back, just let me go, yea
I’m coming back, just let me go
I’m coming back, don’t let me go