"When night falls and everything subsides, you usually hear only your own thoughts... A lot of questions slip through your mind and you can inadvertently wonder why you are trying, why are you wasting your energy so as not to get even minimal recognition in the end? The question is rhetorical and worries me for quite a long time, I have not found an unambiguous answer, since I myself do not understand why I continue to try when I am not recognized... And I am often subjected to harassment that does not leave me alone even at night..."