"My Lord and my God, where do I even begin. Words fail me when I want to describe what You mean to me. You saw me before I could see myself. You chose me before I knew I belonged. You decided to save me before I even knew I was in need of rescue. When I was young, I felt You close, until there came a point where this earthly existence consumed me and the choices I made got me on the wrong path. The darkness came into my life, in many forms, and blinded my eyes and tried to take me down with it. And although I could not always feel You near me, You stayed close. You could have walked away from me and given up on me. But for some reason You didn't. Although You had every right to do so.

I had exchanged Your love for a lie. I believed I could save myself. I began to worship a false god, chased a false light. I began to conform to the patterns of this world. I dismissed Your work, Your suffering, Your holiness, Your existence. I played with fire and flirted with evil. Got involved with people I should had stayed far, far away from. You warned me for them, but it took a while before I was able to put it all together and understand what they were. I had embraced the doctrines of demons. I had gambled with my safety and life. The darkness had almost consumed me. Meanwhile You kept calling me back to You. Reminding me to whom I truely belong. And You did so multiple times until I could no longer ignore it.

Lord, tears fall down my face when I think of how painful it must have been for You to watch how I was treating the precious gift of life that was given to me. How I rebelled against You in the worst possible ways. Yet, still You loved me. A love that we as humans are not capable of fully understanding. Both times that I had encountered you, you pointed me to Scripture. The first time I wasn't yet able to see you for who you are. The second time you opened my eyes, mind and my heart to be able to understand. I finally dusted off my Bible and been in Your Word ever since that day.

The prince of the power of the air been trying to snatch me out of Your hands my entire life, but he was and is unsuccesful because I belong to You Lord. I finally realized what I had allowed into myself, what I had become and saw the truth for what it is. And there is only one truth and not many different versions of it. In one single point, one moment, everything came together, the truth unfolded and the depravity of my being became visible. I saw how the entire world is under the influence of the evil one. I began to remember what You had done for us sinners and what You wanted me to do.

Right then and there I made a promise to You that I will never go back to where I was, and that I will turn from any sin. I pledged to devote my life to You completely. That I will no longer strive after works of the flesh and all the worldly desires, that I no longer serve the false god of this age. I want to serve You only. I am now Your disciple like You called me to be. Ever since that moment I now spent my days in Your Word and going through it is like a treassure hunt. Your Word is alive and there is so much to discover in it. Your Glory is shown through every letter, every page. And all I want to do is fall down on the floor and worship You for eternity.

Jesus Christ, You are my Lord, my King, my Savior. There is no greater love than this. Thank You for creating me. Thank You for saving me. Thank You for choosing me. Thank You for calling me. Thank You for not giving up on me. Thank You for the Holy Spirit who now lives inside me. Thank You for guiding me. Thank You for Your unconditional love. There is nothing I have done or ever could do to deserve all of this. I owe it all to Your great mercy.

I know that spiritual warfare is an ungoing thing, but with the full armor of God, it can no longer snatch me away from You because I am now sealed. I don't ever want to fail You again and I will continue doing the work You want Your followers to do. Spreading the Gospel to all. Because I do know that just claiming to be a Christian, while continuing in the kingdom of darkness, is not saving faith. For we have transfered kingdoms once we are truly saved. I submit myself to Your will. I have picked up my cross, crusified my sinful nature, and follow You on the narrow path. And I know You will help to strip away anything that does not belong to this new life and will continue the work You began in me to make me a new creation in You. Because once You begin Your work, You will not stop that work.

You are the only savior. We can not save ourselves, only You can. You will call Your chosen ones by name. And they will hear Your voice and recognize it. You are the one true Shepherd and know Your flock. I am Yours alone and You are mine. I love You more than I can express in earthly words. Jesus Christ, You got all of me. For eternity.

Scripture references:
Ephesians 1:4 ~ Romans 12:2 ~ 1 Timothy 4:1 ~ 2 Corinthians 4:4 ~ John 6:35 ~ Ephesians 2:1-3 ~ 1 John 3:6-7 ~ Galatians 5:19-21 ~ Hebrews 4:12 ~ 2 Corinthians 4:4 ~ 1 Corinthians 6:19 ~ Ephesians 2:8-9 ~ Ephesians 6:11-18 ~ Ephesians 1:13 ~ Matthew 28:18-20 ~ Matthew 16:24-26 ~ Matthew 7:21 ~ Galatians 5:24 ~ Matthew 7:13 ~ 2 Corinthians 5:17 ~ Philippians 1:6 ~ John 10:1-16"