Weep as you realize that you no longer find joy in your favorite game.
Cry as you think back to past memories of 5 mans with your mates.

As you stare at the defeat screen for the fifth time tonight, your PA is saying ♥♥♥♥ team even though they got their battle fury at 20min and wouldn't fight in the team fights.
You've lost MMR again, back to herald.

You stare at the screen as for a while.
"one more" you whisper in the darkness "i cant lose 6 times in a row"
wrong

A small sigh escapes your lips as you press that red button in the top right. you go back to your steam library. Surely you have somehting esle to play?

An hour later your back on the defeat screen, its 3am, you have work at 8. Go to sleep know and be somewhat human in the morning, or try to end the night on a positive. Thats not even a real question, back to MM you go.

8

9 losses

The sun is peeking through the windows.

"Another All-nighter"

You hop in the shower and let the warm water run across your face, with eyes dryer then the last girl you talked to, and eyelids that refuse to stay open, you start your daily commute. A 15min bus ride to catch a 1hr train.

As you stare out the window you see something strange.
There are people with strange expressions.
Mouths contort in a crescent moon.
oh, there just smiling, a feeling long lost to the dedicated solo Q'er.

work comes and goes, ilde small talk with your co-workers that you have nothing in common with.
"hey anon, were all gonna watch the new spiderman this week, wanna join. we might be able to get work to pay for it if enough of us go as well"

"Sorry" you answer "I have family over this week, Let me know if its good though" you lie.
The only person that you have over is the delivery guy. 'I just need to get to guardian again' you say to yourself.

As you make your journey back home you start to regeret your decision. The first time you were invited somewhere in years and you turn it down, for what?
To lose at a game youre not even sure if you like aymore?
to get abused because you cast shallow grave when they had 10%hp not 9.3487%

Enough is enough, you message your co-worker.

"Hey, my family is actaully flying in next week, not this week, still room for me to come?"


...


...


bzzt bzzt

"Sure man! glad you can make it, were meeting up at mine first..."

you zone out as you read the rest. you face feels funny, you're smiling. who knows where this will lead. But one thing is for sure.

You wont be seeing that defeat screen tonight. :)