“What did I do to make them all want to leave me behind?”
And when you don't understand you end up Wanting to be alone.

I need a sense of direction in life, something to look forward to, a goal, motivation to be better.
Nothing really interests me anymore. I have truly given up, it has made me so miserable that time doesn't pass and I have to either keep myself busy listening to music or playing videogames or else I'd be eaten alive by my thoughts.