i think im also going to take a break im trying to work through somethings and its just me being a ♥♥♥♥♥ but idk what to do anymore im on the very last string till i just give up on trying anything im losing the will to be alive alot more but im still ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ here cause believe me or not im scared of death the thought of staying in a permanent state of consciousness in an endless sight of darkness binds me to still breathe and forcing me to abide by what humans have to do and thats live life im in a permanent place of a constant downfall in how i feel day by day and to have everything and everyone you know to who youve come to know and appreciate would forget you in nothing more than a month and anytime its brought up its sad for a few seconds but in order to deal with these things im going to wallow in self pity hopefully to either end it all or to find a different reason to live