forgive english, I am Russia...

We sex together. I never before now am tell my mother about gay because i am very shame. As i ♥♥♥♥ this American boy it very good to me but also i am feel so guilty. I feel extreme guilty as I begin orgasm. I feel so guilty that I pick up my telephone and call Mother in Russia. I awaken her. It too late for stopping so I am ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ sex. I very upset and guilty and crying, so I yell her, "I AM ♥♥♥ FROM SEX" (in Russia). She say what? I say "I AM ♥♥♥ FROM SEX" and she say "you boy, not marry American girl", and I say "NO I AM ♥♥♥ FROM SEX WITH MAN, I AM IN ASS, I ♥♥♥ IN MAN ASS" and my mother very angry me. She not scared though.

I hang up phone and am very embarrass. My friend also is very embarrass. I am guilt and feel very stupid. I wonder, why do I sex gay with man? Why i not interest in woman? Why mother not accept i gay?