yeah, man.

Been so long hasn't it?

almost four ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ years and i still miss you

Three years out, and I'm still thinking of you. I've gotten married since your passing, thought you might want to know that. Maybe you could have attended. I would have loved to have you there.

I'm sorry I couldn't save you. If there is an afterlife, I hope you found the peace there that you couldn't find in life.

Happy birthday, Kelly. I still miss you, so very much. It's been a long year and a half without you.

Still have you on my friends' list, girl.

Won't ever forget you.

Still feels like my fault, maybe it was.

It's been a year now, and I still miss you. I'm so sorry I couldn't do more. I hope someday we might meet again in another life. I truly hope so.

I wanted to come by here and say something today, and I've been thinking for a while but can't figure out what to say.

If anyone happens to read this - please don't take your friends for granted. Laugh with them when they're happy, help them when they're down. Support them when they need it.

On the fourteenth night of december 2015, at 9:34PM I was playing CS:GO thinking to myself. "Something doesn't feel right, something big could happen right now and I am just here playing a game". Like an idiot I shrugged the thought off thinking that it was just my imagination. I played the game as normal for the next few hours. At 6:32 AM on the fifteenth, I browsed my Tumblr dash, and noticed that you had made a post warning that you might not come back. I knew from our earlier conversations that something wasn't going well in your life. I don't know what, I never asked, thought it would be intrusive of me to do so. I sent you a message that day, saying that everything will be alright. A message you never got to read.

When I got back from school, I was feeling happy and chipper, had a good productive day with no problems at all. I had even made some drawings, one for you specifically, I was really happy to show it to you. Then I got the news. I checked around to make sure that it wasn't some cruel joke being made. But no, you were gone. I cried that day, I haven't really done so in years.
I tried to move on, it's the only thing you can really do when something like this happens. Not really much else that can be done about it you know? Still doesn't feel right trying to. You were a huge part of my life, we've known each other for years. Even though not as much as I would have liked. Every day I see some joke around I would normally link to you, or see some image that you would like. Or maybe even a game that we could play (I still remember that one time we played Borderlands 2. Only happened once, still had loads of fun with that glitched Brute that flew away into the sky).

You've helped me up in times where I was down, and I tried to do the same to you. But knowing that you've called me a role model, and only to know that I wasted that one night in some game when I could have been doing something, anything, to help you stay up-- It stings. It's like I let you trip over and fall right past to the dirt. Well, I guess I did in the end. Not anything I can do about it anymore.

I still cry.

See you later.

I suppose this is my confirmation... Rest in peace, my friend.

It still doesn't feel real.

I miss you.

Veracity passed away Monday evening.

I'm sorry it came to this.

... Did something happen?

Rest in peace.

I am sorry