yap, yap, yap. no one cares mf

I will love you always, im sorry i couldn't just do what you wanted of me.I feel so pathetic crying over you all day, i dont have anything to even distract me from the thought of you. You'll be stuck in my head forever it looks like. Im delusional asf for even wanting you back. Ive never felt worthy of love Shane, im sorry i keep texting you but i just want you back. I want to spend all my time with you and just be together forever cause when you find the person you wanna spend the rest of your life with you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible. Theres no uncertainty in my love for you Shane, I’ll always love you and i just want you to know that. If no one understands you, i do. If no one wants to talk to you, i do. If no one wants to hangout with you, i do. I need you, i want you, and i crave you. Meeting you was like finding a missing piece to my ♥♥♥♥♥♥ up puzzle but you fit perfectly.

Oh how i miss you so much Shane, i wish this never happened. I wanted to spend the rest of my days with you, ever since we met i wanted too. I miss us, how in love we were. I still love you more than you could imagine, maybe keep the door a little cracked for when you're ready again. I wish neither of us had to grow up like we did, no one should be treated like that by there own parents. I wish i could have one more night with you so i can feel the warmth of your body and hear your heartbeat once more. I want to break down in your arms again, the ones that held me so tight. I want you and all i ever wanted is you, i love you for everything about you. Im selfish but i dont wanna try with anyone else, i cant get any better than how it was with you. You are the most beautiful girl ive ever looked at and i dont want to watch you fade away.

Im really sorry for texting you so much, i dont have anyone else to talk to. It hurts, knowing that you loved me. I wont forget what it was like to be with you. Im sorry i couldn't be what you needed, i wish i would've changed for you. I love you so much. Im changing for you cause i know thats all you wanted me to do. I know you wont take me back but if you ever change your mind id comeback in a heartbeat. I miss talking to you all the time. This is really hard Shane, i cant eat, cant sleep, and all because i cant help but think about you and how i ruined the best thing that happened to me. Im really really sorry, for bothering you.
I don't know how to be okay without you loving me
Im so sorry Shane

i just thought i would be bothering you asking you hangout the time before we broke up, i didnt want you to hate me for constantly asking to hangout with you. I just wanted you to know i was capable of being away from you, my head is flooded with you. Fantasizing that maybe you'll come back to me if i do it right. What happened to locking me in the closet huh, i grew my hair out for you but i think im gonna cut for my new job. Missing filling up your water bottle and getting things for you even if i didnt know what i was getting or looking for sometimes. Its just not very fair from my perspective, i wanted you from the moment you left the apartment up until now. I wanted you to ASK me and not the other way around. I figured you would ask eventually but you never did and then you broke up with me. I never even got the chance to say i love you one last time. My mom say that i should write you a letter but i dont even know if you'll be able to read it. I would be your slave if you wanted

*boops*