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I dreamed about you recently. Isn't it strange how the sleeping mind so easily ignores reality... I do not know to feel joy or anger at seeing you again. It's cruel to dangle hope to the hopeless.
Love you, Alec

Happy 2024 Jon. Missing you more than ever lately. When I look ahead it is hard not to remember that every step forward will be one away from you. Memories will fade in time but I will keep them close to my heart. I remember when we were boys and something had scared you into hiding ( for your dignity, I will not share ) and I told you for the first time not to be afraid and to face your fears. Time and time again despite circumstance tearing our lives to pieces we didn't lose one another. I was never afraid because we were always there for one another. What is a brother to do when he is all that is left of the fraternal bond? Life has become some restless sleepwalking dream I have no part in.

♥♥♥♥ I hate working. You're lucky you don't have to do all this tax ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥. I miss you more and more every day Jon. I feel the fire inside raging against the grief but I will never give up. Making you proud,
Love AL

Days are eating me alive lately. I wish I could talk to you again like we always did when times were trying. Nowadays I feel like I'm burning alive struggling to keep myself afloat. I'm still going to keep fighting for control of my life though, no matter the pain. love you brother ❤️

♥♥♥♥♥♥ up year so far but I've been getting it done. Reached out to mom, she misses us all terribly. Her and Dad both. Hope you guys are up there having more fun than I am down here. Love ya Jon ❤️

This year sucked without you. I've been visiting your grave more often and it's always covered in gifts from visitors. People loved you dearly and I know I do too. Always my partner in crime and most trusted for any secret. I would worry when you'd sneak out at night, most times staying awake until you came back to describe your night of wild thrills and antics, always with that ♥♥♥♥ eating grin we chambers fellers have. Its been hard without you to help push me along, but im trying harder and harder every day. It's torture really and I hate every minute of it, but I'm not going to give up; one of us must carry the torch on. I'll fight every day tooth and nail to make something of my life for you, and myself. I love you jon jon.
-A