After so many years of putting other people first, over-pouring, over-giving people, pleasing, trying to understand people's reasons for hurting you, you're exhausted, drained and indifferent. So when people cry to return after treating you badly, you just no longer care. If someone who has been or is in my life comes and says something to you about me, even if its negative, I might tell you to believe them because of what they had to do to get me to that point. I am absolutely a villain in some people's stories, but people's minds and memories are selective and they just start where I became the villain..and I have no qualms about that. I can absolutely be very comfortable being the villain in your story because I know myself well enough to know I will never wake up and intentionally want to hurt you out of the blue..and even when you hurt me, I will never want to hurt you back. But you best believe I will stand my ground. You will no longer have access to me..And if I come off as cruel, if I come off as a villain, so be it.