[8/1/2024 11:07 AM] dirtmerchant. ugh. because. it made me feel things. because it's your hand. because i wanted to observe all the grooves, all the small details. it made me feel so many things.

[8/1/2024 11:12 AM] dirtmerchant. because i was thinking abt u. bc i coupdnt talk to you. because i wanted to think abt that moment. that point in time. because i wantes to feel something. becauae i felt too much. because i was sad. i counted the lines. i drew art to ur fingertips bc i couldnt sleep. i dont know. there's no good reason for it. it's just where i chose to focus on to stop everything else in my head.

[8/1/2024 11:24 AM] dirtmerchant. because it felt like a bomb of emotions. because it was a way to hurt myself back. becaue i could count lines to focus. because i wantes to think about your hands. because i felt. so many things. because i couldnt stop thinking about you.