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Even during my worst moments, I can still learn to believe.

As soon as my hands stop shaking.

Inspired by journalism, the maid will always hear you out, even if you are unforgivable or unforgiven, unless it is too late to hear you.
Inspired by maids, the maid will always grin and bear through most kinds of pain, even if they hate familiar pit of despair.

Most people call me whatever name they prefer.
If you ask me it's probably Abby or Alyssa.
Some call me some other special things that hold meaning to me. It's up to you to find the context behind those names.
AKA. just ask!

My life has been hellish lately, I can't be replying 24/7 hours.
Immensely distant. But even maids have to be there for you at their lowest points in life, so I'll do what I can. But... Please don't wait for me to make a move. I don't really feel like doing anything.
I reply better on discord. [discord.com]

I take some parts of everyone I like with me.
Some parts are generally bigger than others, especially more so if the person is more important to me.

Things they say. Their habits, their interests.
Some others I take their dreams and inspirations with me too. Their goals, memories, what they stood for. Their names.

Please refrain from engaging in the following activities, involving beating, slapping, punching, kicking, burning, cutting, tearing, breaking, shooting, injuring, traumatizing, damaging, or wounding the maid.

...Please don't forget to avoid attempts to humiliate, degrade, insult, belittle, bully, taunt, mock, ridicule, invalidate, distress, agonize, harass, sexualize, objectify, or oppress the maid.


Life is written in the ultimate single stroke of a brush.
That's why you've gotta make every moment count.

“Once you’re at rock bottom, the only way forward is up. But the bottom doesn’t have to be all dark and gloomy. If you can stand and look up, you’ll see the light of hope there.”
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Thanks for everything.

Sugar.
Thank you for being nice to me, no matter what I go through.
Truly are a one of a kind sugar.

Hiriu - my personal assistant.
Don't burn yourself out, being my assistant is hard work!
Somehow remains here for this useless maid despite everything.

Lolsy.
I'll never leave you the same fate that others did on to you.
I promise to you.

I still remember you, the times we shared, the love you gave. I will be here for you, always and forever.
always was an angel that shined in the dark [www.yout-ube.com]

Glory be. Worship and believe.
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it's not the end of the world,
but i feel it from here.


a glimpse of fear.
maybe everything will be okay.
and maybe it won't...

I should congratulate myself for making it out alive
...but I don't feel like doing that. I've lost too much.
And any trace of what once was has been obliterated.
I succumb to weakness and regret.

"It is possible to commit no mistakes and still lose. That is not a weakness. That is life."

"We did everything right, everything that was asked of us, and still, still it came to this."

“And it was just outside the furnace, where I S ranked my mother’s corpse” - Hiriu 2021

"Just a little further and my dreams would have been realized. I can’t believe I was that naive..."

"All I can do is push those memories as deep inside myself as I can, and wait for them to die."

"Everything's so screwed, and that's not even the worst part.
What's really awful...
Is everyone telling me to let go of the one thing keeping me going."

"Sometimes, the << best memories >> make the << hurtful ones worse >>"

"I don't know what to do anymore... but they're probably right.
Why, would anyone try to save me or you?"

"You tried to calm down, but you can't stop hyperventilating and everyone is laughing at you and"
"You tried to calm down, but that'd mean you don't care and that'd mean you're insane and"
"You tried to calm down, but shut up shut the hell up and I don't ever wanna be calm and"

"YET THEY COULDN'T HELP BUT HESITATE, ALL THEIR GUILT AND SHAME
SPILLED OUT, CLUMSILY, ONTO A BELIEF'S NAME
FOR WHEN I SAID SOMETHING ELSE WAS TO BLAME

THE ONLY PERSON LEFT TO BLAME
WAS
ME."

"There is a last time for everything. Everything. "

9:13 AM - ?lsnana.chr: but thanks for being here with me :)
9:13 AM - Brocas: :)

3:05 PM - ?lsnana.chr: SAY *SCREAM
3:05 PM - Brocas: say *scream


"All people die, so serving is ultimately pointless."
"But, maid, I have observed masters leaving with smiles."
"Is helping people smile pointless as well?"

The selfish deed is not freedom
Even if it falls down
-
The selfish deed is not freedom
Can’t justify
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The selfish deed is not freedom
Even if it’s so sad

Sick of the fake smiles and the whispering behind people's backs.

find out for yourself
whether this story
is even capable of having a happy ending

"So just once more, please let me try again."

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"I wish I had a harem of cat girls. Repercussions be damned."
"I wish I had a harem of demon girls. Repercussions be damned."
"I wish I had a harem of dragon girls. Repercussions be damned."
"I wish I had a harem of angel girls. Repercussions be damned."
"I wish I had a harem of monster girls. Repercussions be damned."
"I wish I had a harem of brown bunny girls. Repercussions be damned."
"I wish to remain free, to be a cute maid, with my own meaning of fun."
"I wish for a happy ending, in a world that might never get to see it."
"I wish I could actually get around to watching this show someday."
"I wish for a resolution for everyone's past, if I can stop myself from knowing my own."
"I wish to see the sights of the world and to roll them up into one vast space."
"I wish I could order coffee without looking like a fool."
"I wish for world peace."
"I wish I could give you pure, unbridled happiness that can come at no cost."
"I wish I can grant your wishes, and my own."
"I wish I can save you and save everyone else."

"Just once, I wish I could rewind time to make things right."

Fear equals the will to survive.
Death follows strong behind me.

A badge showcase hanging to my top right, glimpsed out of the corner of my eye.
Endless repetition of the act of showing up next to comments and friends.
Time freezing in place like a 184px image.

"You are in a steam profile." The paranoid feel of someone using my identity. There was something disturbingly familiar about the headline before me... the text was all in pretty curves. The truth was a burning steam crack through my brain. I was in a steam profile.

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