You became a toxic gamer because you are a loser in real life, nothing in your life worth cherishing except gaming and P*rnhub-ing on daily basis.
You invest so much time and energy into gaming because your life is just a failure, you have no other achievement in real life, and knew this fact very well deep inside your heart.
Sorry to give you a bad game, but I have a life to work on and I only play games in my leisure time. Unlike you, a lifeless freak who keeps grinding over a game.