I can honestly say that I've been asked a million times why I rate music. Usually, I just shrug and say "It's a hobby." But that's a lie. Because when I'm on RYM, I'm at home. From the spectralism of Horatiu Radulescu, to the musique concrète of Jed Speare, to the EAI of Martin Siewert. Everything I listen to, is the music I love, and know. My entire life, people preached that I could be anything that I wanted to be. But when I told them that I wanted to be a tastemaker. An avant-teen. The avant-teen with over 15,000 ratings. That I want to be the next AntiWarhol. They told me that I need to get a grip on reality. Now I understand that it's human nature to achieve rational ecstasy, but I can do this as an avant-teen. I don't need a degree. And if I want to go achieve rational ecstasy, I don't ever have to leave the comfort of my own home. Yet people spend an entire salary to buy CDs. And I can't help but laugh. I've single-handedly downloaded 200 albums of obscure onkyo from Soulseek. But before I could do that, I needed to learn their language. Add all avant-teens as friends and copy their high ratings one by one. Not to mention I had to delete entire pages of P4kcore ratings, along with several Scaruffi favorites before I could even begin my lessons in being an avant-teen. I've rated fifteen pages of EAI. I wanted to be avant, and I became avant. I rated Antoine Beuger five stars. And I've been droning AntiWarhol for generations, just so I could get to the top of his compatibility list. I have my own world at my fingertips. If I screw my ratings up, I can mass edit them. I can't do that in real life. But when I'm on RYM, I'm free to do what I please, when I please. I'm free to enjoy music the way I want to. I can build my own legion of mindless drones and lead them to rate obscure avant-folk five stars, because I'm the mind behind the music. I'm the one who enjoys this music. I am an avant-teen, and I always will be.

I'm kind of just making a forum here where y'all can vent, but I also want to see how much I relate to what y'all are saying so that I can see if I'm a fellow Doomer.
I think I am, but I desperately want to be a Bloomer. Though I don't think we really get to choose what we become...
EDIT: here's why I think I'm a Doomer. I listen to very gloomy music. not necessarily sad, but not happy either. I'm only 17 so I'm not really able to pursue many dreams yet but I already feel aimless, like I have no purpose other than to just exist. I'm very redpilled on my politics, or rather crimson pilled, I'm not quite blackpilled but getting there. I've never participated in a /nightwalk/ but I think the last time I went to bed before 3am was in 2018
EDIT 2: Could y'all link some Doomer playlists for me bc while idk if I'm a Doomer, I love the music associated with it

Knowing what I know has only worsened my anxiety and depression. I wish I could go back to being an optimistic 10 year old who's only worries were buying the latest video games and watching TV. I wish I could go back to being religious so I felt like after this nightmare ends, there's a light at the end of the tunnel. I wish I could go back to before I understood female nature. And how screwed our political system is. And how the Federal Reserve has turned our economy in to a house of cards. And how 90% of our life is pre determined at birth.
I became an atheist at 12. 12. Like WTF. I started studying the Austrian school of economics at 13. Learned about MGTOW and female nature at 17. After high school I learned out of the few friends I had, only 3 of them were really my friends.
My quest for knowledge has only made me bitter and lonely. Be ignorant. Be happy. Because once you understand the system we are in, you will never look at the world the same. Sorry if this is ramble but I'm having a mild panic attack rn

Dude! BatChest Did you see last night my ace with 5 flying daggers? BatChest Thanks for laying down those two dark orbs in the jungle ruins for me bro BatChest I knew he has the spy cam but my tornado jump made quick work of that BatChest Anyways gonna eco with my laser sniper smg next round so they don’t counter with fireballs BatChest Valorant is the best game ever BatChest

hello my name is Mohhamad Bin Salmand im prince of Saudi Arabia and I live in palace on mirage. past two weeks some homeless person keep coming and sitting on my couch, he said his name is Jame and he was "saving" can someone tell me what that means?

Hey, I was put with the team of 4 on the Nuke map. My team was being extremely toxic to you, and I wish I could have done something, but I would have been teamkilled or kicked. Just wanted to say that you are an amazing person and that you should never listen to such comments made by such people lol.

I was in Riga last week. I went to the local computer shop to see if they had new graphics cards that are so limited. As walked into the store I was so surprised to see YEKINDAR. He was gluing his eyes to each monitor one by one. The workers were unfazed, this was a daily occurrence according to them

hello this is Jame’s mom, Jane. I would appreciate it if you would stop making fun of my son for saving. He grew up in a poor country and we never had awp. we couldn’t afford awp, just p250 for our children to eat. if you would be so kind and not make fun of my son please, or I will report.

Hey what’s up bruh, I just want you to know I’m also drinking a Bud Light right now, and I just wanna let you know, man, that you could just drink that shit and smoke a Black and Mild and just chill the fuck out dude. Cuz imma tell you right now, me and my friends we’re gonna rip all your fucking limbs off your body, and we’re gonna fucking shove dead animals down your throat until your fucking stomach explodes and then we’re all gonna piss on you and light you on fire. Aite? So, thanks for making that video, but, we’re basically gonna fucking torture and kill you now.

i like this game. with my life
I'm a super fan of Naruto and Pokemon
hamburgers my passion
chubby tasty

I fancy myself a comparably and relatively knowledgeable person with preferably unorthodox methods (mostly from inexperience). Furthermore, some know me for my "detailedness," but I like to think I know my science (biology), because I certainly don't pay attention to detail xDx .3. and I'm certainly not much of an analyst.

I (adult male) have gone through many weird stages within my sexuality throughout
I was into women a majority of my life. But within the past few years I've masturbated to furry male characters (Like Sonic the Hedgehog and Rocket Raccoon) as well as other fictional male characters (like an 18+ version of Deku from MHA)
And then a couple years ago I've accepted my attraction to trans women after after years of misunderstanding the complexities of gender at the time.
But after that I've started also masturbating and having attraction to femboys since some of them look no different to cis and trans women

I saw blameF once in a McDonald’s and he was acting strange. Whenever someone came in, he’d go behind them. It was like he never wanted to go first. When all the people bought their lunches it was his turn since no one was left. He looked at me and said “I’d rather save my money for tomorrow” and he bhopped out through the window. Strange guy..