I actually have been hating life ever since I joined Zingerz’s twitch chat. When I first got chosen to be his teammate for a casual 2s game, I missed one open net out of about 7 games we played together, and I have been memed since. Now, every time I join Zingerz chat, I get :zinger5Sleeper: and SleeperCouncil directed at me, Smym sending paragraphs on how I snipe Zingerz, and get an “o god now jsadge is here” from Zingerz. I have not been intentionally sniping Zingerz, We just have the same mmr so the game prioritizes me getting into his games more often. I can not believe I even bothered saying hi in the first place when it seems like my life would be much better if I didn't spend about 780 hours in his twitch streams. It seems as if I am the punching bag alongside jack even though I am NEVER toxic unlike jack. It feels like as soon as I mess something up, the whole chat is saying how terrible I am at this game. Whenever I make a bad song request, the whole chat is talking about “who let this guy do a song request”. The only thing that is helping me get through this are people saying I love jsadge, yet their messages are being deleted for some reason. Surely the mods must be deleting the wrong messages. Now I lay in bed every night thinking about what would not have happened if I wasn't terrible at this awful game and did not miss the one open net while I had 200 ping and steam randomly opened mid shot.