I started watching anime so much that I’ve lost my love for real girls, I’m so attracted to these animated girls and their good looks and personality that I wish I was in a coma where I could be with them. Since the pandemic occurred I really wanted that highschool anime love story with someone but I don’t have an attraction to any real girls (not trying to be mean but they are all ugly) they can’t compare to anime girls. I'm in the best years of my life and I’m just sad all the time and the time is going by so fast and I’m afraid I’ll never find someone to hold me down or just give me a taste of that anime love or reality, I just hate the idea of getting old I just wanted to stay young all my life, I don’t want that time to come where it’s too late , I really want to find that someone and I feel if I just lose my attraction for anime girls for a real girl that’ll mean she’s the one, to be honest I wanna die when I’m like 35 I don’t wanna get old I just wanna stay young forever it’s like watching a highschool anime with all these young characters and then there is just this time skip to when they’re all adults and you say to yourself where did the time go I don’t want that to happen to me cause I already feel the years going by, idk if it’s just me or does anyone else feel this way.