Thing with me is that… I am smart, and im self smarted basically by myself. Basically from nature and smoking drugs and doing different things, ive self… like, self learned myself. And thats the whole difference, I guess, its that I dont need the books or the schooling type things. I just get everything on my own and because of that, im alive right now. I mean, if id read more books or tried to go to on to college and different things like that, Id be dead right now. Because people say books and college are for to make you smarter, but they can also be for to get you dead, which is what couldve happened to me. My brain doesnt use enough oxygen, cause I dont have the whole thing filled with different stuff. And if it was full, its only part full and thats why im alive right now. Guards in here are, “here, read this book, try to hey smarter.” Im like, alright ill pretend to read it. Im not gonna really read it, cause then my brain would be more full and if I have another heart attack, Im gonna die.