Please God, someone, anyone, help me! PLEASE!

I feel so.....I don't know what negative word to use...

I don't get out as much as I'd like; I see these guys on YouTube do so much fun stuff together, I want that.

The whole world is closing in on me, demanding I do some kind of work or something, and I'm scared of the real world.

And my lack of a love life... I want a girlfriend so badly. Someone who loves me the way I am. And yet I'm so hooked on Zendaya. I want to meet her so badly, be her friend and possibly marry her. My heart aches every time I think about it!

I don't want to, but sometimes I feel like the only escape from this impending fear and depression is suicide...

But I.....please help me....I'm just so trapped...!

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