I hope you were around when I saw your doppleganger on the way to work about a year after. That stuck with me... I cried. I hoped time and again that I would get a text from you. It didn't need to be big. Just something FROM you. But look at me rambling. There's zero structure to any of this, and frankly I'm just typing the words as they come into my brain. I know you'll never see it, but honestly it's a bit cathartic.

All this ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ said, I don't know where you are now, but I hope you've found the peace you wanted for so long. I hope you know how many people truly loved you, and despite decisions made, you were always going to be my brother, my best friend, my confidant, and of course... my gaming buddy. WoW and Neverwinter could ever be the same without you.

The world isn't the same without you.

You're always on my mind, and I still love you, bud.

Thank you for everything you ever gave.

I miss the ♥♥♥♥ out of you, Charlie. I know there at the end I was kind of a ♥♥♥♥♥♥, distant friend, but that doesn't change the fact that I still loved you like a brother. Your friendship meant the absolute world to me, and I'll always cherish the time we had while always wishing for more.

I sometimes wonder if I could have done or said anything that might have made a difference. Maybe if I had made the effort to see you... you were living close to me at the time. Hindsight, am I right?

3 ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ years later... so much has happened since you've been gone, and I hope you've been able to see it. I felt you around for the longest time, but maybe it's in my head. Maybe I wanted to believe you were sticking around. Why should you hang around me tho? Clara and the kids were your world, and I know you were a great father with a big heart. You loved those kids more than anything else. It's beautiful to look back on that, especially when I myself struggle with being a good father.