Ainsel McBronko
Nordrhein-Westfalen, Germany
 
 
https://www.twitch.tv/ainselmcbronko

“Perfect paranoia is perfect awareness.”
― Stephen King
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🧠 PTSD • Anxiety • Depression - The Holy Trinity of Final Bosses
🎮 Gamer. Dreamer. Survivor.

I don't just play games. I disappear into them.
Sometimes I need a quiet pixel to breathe. Sometimes I need chaos to feel something.
Either way – I'm here, and I'm still going.
Mental Health isn’t a side quest.
It's a daily boss fight. I live with PTSD, anxiety and depression, and some days my controllers feels heavier than usual.
Whether you're fighting dragons or just fighting to get out of bed –
you’re valid, you’re seen, and you’re enough.

Stay neon. Stay soft. Stay stubborn.

𝙄 𝙖𝙢 𝙖 𝙬𝙖𝙡𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙛𝙚𝙖𝙧 𝙥𝙖𝙘𝙠𝙖𝙜𝙚 – but I come with snacks 🍫

What you’ll find here:
• 💖 Safe chaos
• 🎧 Mental health main
• 🫥 Awkward but sincere vibes

🧃 **Fun Facts:**
• I respawn emotionally before physically.
• Trauma got lore. Anxiety got DLC.
• I once said "gg" after sneezing.
• I’m 70% emotion, 30% controller drift.
• I'm the one who talks to trees while the rest respawn.

💌 Wanna connect?
🔥Be weird, be kind, speak in memes – you're welcome here.
🚫 Tryhards, toxic bois & mic screamers? Nie, danke, nope, hayır 🙃
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Hell Let Loose – It's Not Just a War Game to Me

I suffer from anxiety, depression, and social phobia. Strangers? Terrifying. Voice chat? Often impossible. Playing a multiplayer team-based game? Impossible for a very long time.

And then Hell Let Loose came along.

I just wanted to do something new with a friend at first — nothing too big. But game by game, step by step, something odd and lovely occurred: I began to speak. Small at first. A "copy" here, a "thank you" there. But it grew. Piece by piece, this game allowed me to break down the walls of my social anxieties. And not because it coerced me — but because it made me comfortable enough to attempt.

There’s something magical about how Hell Let Loose encourages cooperation over performance. Nobody cares if you’re not a sharpshooter. What matters is that you’re there — calling out enemy positions, dropping supplies, reviving someone under fire. Even when my hands are shaking from anxiety, this game gives me a role, a voice, a reason to speak.

So yeah. Maybe for others, it’s “just a game.”
But for me, Hell Let Loose is something of a therapy.
Thanks to all the humans who ever did nice things for a quiet teammate. You assisted more than you could possibly understand.
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