I mean I love this game. I wanted to play it. I love the challenge. I love the competition. I love the manipulation. I love the sociopathic nature of this game which I failed at unfortunately because when I see these people I just keep thinking to myself "How did you wind up here with these people?" and then love outside the game.
I mean I've cared about people. I care how people. Gosh, I must not know what it feels like. I just don't have that quick bond I suppose. I don't have that quick reaction where everybody else seems do. It takes me time, takes me a while to open up because I need you to open up. I need you to be vulnerable first before I am. And it comes back to power and whatnot. In the game where I need to wait and see if you're willing to be vulnerable, yeah back home romantically. I wait and I'll wait and I'll wait. I think that's where it comes across as "I don't get him. I don't understand what's he thinking. What is he pondering. What does he want from the relationship?" Yeah, that now I think about it. It probably hurts me in the game and in my life.

It is unbelievable Jeff. I can't even express it. Like I just feel so much emotion, like I feel I've been through this already. I've thought about this. Jeff, this is all about Val, you know. This is all about Jordan. This is all about Cameron.

Counter-Strike: Global Offensive
Start: 15. June 2013

Road To Supreme Master First Class - hit 10.8.2016

PC Specs:

MOBA: MSI Z97 GAMING 3
CPU: Intel Core i5 - 4590
GPU: NVIDIA GeForce GTX 970 4GB
RAM: 8 GB 1600 MHz
HDD: 2TB + 256GB M.2 SSD
OS: Windows 10 Pro x64 bit
Internet Connection: ↓300mb/s - ↑25mb/s (↔9ms)

My Gear:

Mouse: Razer DeathAdder Chroma
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