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   With a deeply introverted and introspective nature, navigating social interactions often feels like a challenge for me. Living with mental health conditions such as ADHD, Schizoid Personality Disorder (SPD), and Depersonalization Disorder, communication can sometimes become overwhelming, causing me to appear more reserved and hesitant. As a result, I tend to hold back from initiating connections or reaching out. However, this doesn't stem from a lack of interest in others—it's simply part of how I experience the world around me.


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   There was a period in my life when creativity flowed effortlessly, and my productivity reached new heights. I poured myself into countless writings for my novels and personal projects—pieces I hold close and prefer to keep private. If you were to explore my writing, you might sense a touch of the unfamiliar, influenced by my deep admiration for the works of H.P. Lovecraft and Friedrich Nietzsche. Alongside writing, I once dreamed of composing my own music, mastering both the piano and guitar. But as time passed, the once fierce passion I held for these pursuits was slowly dulled by the weight of anhedonia. Even so, a few flames continue to flicker. I still find moments of solace and joy, whether in the company of cherished friends, losing myself in the beauty of music, or weaving poetry from the depths of my soul.

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   If you leave a comment and I don’t respond immediately, please know that I haven’t overlooked or disregarded you. Rather, it’s because I often prefer to craft my replies with care. I tend to express myself in more poetic or thoughtful ways (I'll be using simple ASCII art if I'm lazy enough that is). After all, creativity can’t always be rushed, and I believe that thoughtful expression takes time to nurture.


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   I’m no longer accepting friend requests so casually. Too often, it feels like some bozos are just collecting friends or showing off status. However, if we have mutual friends or have played together before, I’d be happy to connect with you.


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   I want you to know that your existence holds deep significance. Your presence has purpose, reminding you that you are alive and that you matter. Life may feel like a sh!tshow at times, but I assure you it doesn’t stay that way forever. It just takes time, and the opportunities for change will come—when you're ready to take them. I wish you a fulfilling and hopeful journey ahead.


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   "The surest way to be deceived is to consider oneself cleverer than others." — François de La Rochefoucauld


   "Books are the ultimate Dumpees: put them down and they’ll wait for you forever; pay attention to them and they always love you back." — John Green, An Abundance of Katherines


   "Sometimes you don’t look very hard for things you don’t believe will or can happen." ― James Dashner, The Maze Runner


   "Everything worthwhile in life is won through surmounting the associated negative experience. Any attempt to escape the negative, to avoid it or quash it or silence it, only backfires. The avoidance of suffering is a form of suffering. The avoidance of struggle is a struggle. The denial of failure is a failure. Hiding what is shameful is itself a form of shame." — Mark Manson, The Subtle Art of Not Giving a ♥♥♥♥


   "An isolated person requires correspondence as a means of seeing his ideas as others see them, and thus guarding against the dogmatisms and extravagances of solitary and uncorrected speculation. No man can learn to reason and appraise from a mere perusal of the writing of others. If he live not in the world, where he can observe the public at first hand and be directed toward solid reality by the force of conversation and spoken debate, then he must sharpen his discrimination and regulate his perceptive balance by an equivalent exchange of ideas in epistolary form." ― H.P. Lovecraft


   "Without music, life would be a mistake." ― Friedrich Nietzsche, Twilight of the Idols


   "Arrogant people habitually overestimated their own abilities and underestimated everyone else’s." ― David Baldacci, Absolute Power


   "Smoke. Smell of sulfur. Ruins... Thirst. That's where I started. The world was groaning. Pain, sorrow, and remorse... kept ringing in my ears. But I couldn't feel any emotions. In desperate need of help... and it was so easy to get through that open wound. The world was sorted out rather quickly... and I was hidden by such false peace. When my senses were dulled by mundane days... I happened to recall the burning thirst. When the long-forgotten thirst started to burn again... my instinct was directed only at one place. But a sinful body didn't deserve to quench the thirst. Since then, I searched and searched for an instrument that could hold my thirst instead. Tea Leaves. A Filter. Water. For far too long, I had to endure the thirst that was never quenched... theories of hopes and integrity. Rationalization, and self-pity of incomplete scums that kept ringing in my ears, a blessing that didn't belong to me, sporadic distribution of power so distant from me and insatiable thirst called perfection..." — Cheat, Guardians of the Video Game


   "Words have no power to impress the mind without the exquisite horror of their reality." — Edgar Allan Poe


   "When you know nothing matters, the universe is yours. And I've never met a universe that was into it. The universe is basically an animal, it grazes on the ordinary. It creates infinite idiots just to eat them." — Rick, Rick and Morty, S3 E9