What is wrong with me?

Rant/Vent

I'm a trans FTM, but I haven't come out about it to anyone in real life. Every time I find a long distance boyfriend, I get close to them, but then we just drift apart. We rarely spend any time together. I feel single whenever I see someone else cuddling or flirting with their partner, even though I am taken. I just want attention. I want to constantly be cuddled and hugged, but it's like nothing ever works. I might be polygamous, but I wouldn't want my partners to have other partners. I feel like a selfish brat and idk what to do...

P.S. I originally posted this in r/sexuality but someone said I might have better luck posting it here. Also, sorry if I used the wrong flair. Idk what I'd call this.

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Salsa, y picante, y nos fuimos

+rep based man

hu paul

Nice grammar, 10/10 for a description.