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NIKKE LOVER

A change in pace.

I thought I could stay here
To find some acceptance and make up for what was lost
I tried hard to conform
But out of confusion, they kept distance in their hearts

(Inward disruption of a heart that wouldn't bleed)

Was I wrong this whole time?
I wanted to coexist with that crowd at any cost;
But life's what they define-
The quiet presumptions are what kept us all apart

(Patience subsided, cold indifference received)

I can't escape
The disdain in their face
All fears ignored
Like all other times before

I move outward with fear
The morals and structures that they built would slowly fall
Time-worn buildings held firm
Against a horizon with warped clouds behind it all
(TRAPPED BY CORRUPTION, FAR BEYOND OUR MISERY)
AND ONCE DARKNESS CONFINES
THE VERY EXISTENCE THAT THEY SAID THIS HOME WOULD BE,
WHAT THEY FAILED TO CONTROL
BECOMES THE ATTENTION OF THEIR ANIMOSITY
(WE FALL DIVIDED FROM THE LIES THAT WE BELIEVE)

ONCE THEY ERASE
(I THOUGHT THAT I WAS DOING WELL)
THE FACADE THEY EMBRACED,
WHAT I ABHORRED
(TOO MANY FACES HERE TO TELL)
SHALL BECOME MY FATE ONCE MORE

i thought that i was doing well
once prevailing-
too many faces here to tell
if mine's unveiling
there's nothing left for me, they say-
that i should leave alone;
until time says i've grown
they'll reinforce their lies

did you forget
what you had done
to make your life
the manic hell
that they assumed
was "kept under control?"
you can't escape-
I won't relent;
nothing will come
between us now,
try as you will,
soon I'll be taking hold.

thousands of years
will have elapsed
until you find
you're not to blame
for what they all
thought they could reprimand
but there's no end
to ignorance
no true reprieve
from selfishness
until you see
the actions from your hand

using your skill
to form a wall
between yourself
and what you've done
for anyone
who ever cared for you
using your voice
to scare them off
and memories
to keep them in
you disrespect
the accurate and true

all that you had
will turn to dust
so long as I
remember all
and help refresh
the echoes of the brain
until you feel
the grief you must
confront the hate
regain your trust
I will persist
to cause you further pain)

i thought that i was doing well
but i'm failing
cast from their world, stuck in my shell
with tears still trailing
why won't my anger fade away?
and how could i have known
the feelings i have shown
are what they all despise?

i can't help what they presume i am
(Why did I think I'd be seen as their friend?)
they can't fix what they won't understand
(Who can blame them; i just complicate their rules- i disappoint these people in the end)

Capable enough to adapt
Yet liable enough to fall behind, but i'm
Capable enough to adapt
Yet liable enough to fall behind, but i'm
Capable enough to adapt
Yet liable enough to fall behind, but i'm
Capable enough to adapt
Yet liable enough to fall behind, but i'm
FUNCTIONING ENOUGH TO ENDURE
YET FRANGIBLE ENOUGH TO STALL IN SILENCE, I'M
FUNCTIONING ENOUGH TO ENDURE
YET FRANGIBLE ENOUGH TO STALL IN SILENCE, I'M
FUNCTIONING ENOUGH TO ENDURE
YET FRANGIBLE ENOUGH TO STALL IN SILENCE, I'M
FUNCTIONING ENOUGH TO ENDURE
YET FRANGIBLE ENOUGH



NOT THE FIRST,

FAR FROM THE LAST-

SILENCED ALL THE SAME.


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