i think this guy might like oneshot





ya know sometimes i do really wonder if ill ever play a game of the same quality as oneshot or ddlc a game that will just hit me right in the feels like really stick with me oneshot is important because niko is such a good and well hearted person and all you want to do is help and you do and it hurts really bad when they break the sun or place it like who knows where they went. do they live in the world now? did they die? man it really sucks that i will never play the game for the first time again and for ddlc i dont even know why i like it honestly i played it when it first came out and that was a bad time for me i think im falling into the unhealthy obsession like i did 5 years ago i keep that away from my group and what not but i think they know and treat me different for it i wasted what could have been my best years of my life having a obsession for a dumb meta horror game i still cant disassociate myself from the game its not good for me to like that game as you can see i have remade all my profile to niko stuff basically i scared to tell anyone i know about how i feel about these games i feel that they will stop liking me if i tell them im so scared to make them feel differently about me i dont want to loose them this would be the third time that happened to me and each time its because of an obsession i really dont know what ill do its not like i have people to talk to irl or anywhere else i only have them each time i go to sleep i worry they just suddenly stop like me for something i did even if that thing isnt even real i dont know every time i open up to anybody the ether dont like me anymore or treat me with some weird sort of i dont know way of speaking like im mentally ill and that im a danger to myself even if i did try anything im too much of a ♥♥♥♥♥ to do it anyways i wouldnt be surprised if ppl think i self harm i cant even blame them well at least im not a porn addict 2020 and 2021 killed any social drive i ever had im now too scared to talk to anybody in real life all i do is games and i still am horrible at most of the ones i play unless i have a unheathy amount of playtime even then im just average at best and its not like im getting paid to play im too much of a ♥♥♥♥♥ to stream by myself i dont know how to form a conversation with a person i dont know i can barely start a dm with someone with text all i do is lisen to music all day and for a guy that lisens to music all day i dont know ♥♥♥♥ about it when it comes to making or publishing it i feel like a lot of people worry that ill kill myself and it makes me sad that i make them worry like that i think even my parents think that it hurts to get out of bed i dont know why i do most days its not like i have anything better to do i dont want to tell anybody how i feel i dont want a therapist all they do is lisen and i dont want a person that has the capability to put me in a mental hospital to know how i feel ive been hiding how i feel for years and you know what i think ill keep it that way from people that i know that can do that there is only like 4 or 5 people that i can enjoy myself with these days I i should not be thinking these things im not 18 sorry if you read this well im 18 now. had things happen still feel the same i think things are going as i predicted sadly