When I was 8 years of old my interest and abilities in spell works started to show itself but a 8 years of old child does not really know that what those symptoms mean, symptoms like ability to use sigils without reading or learning about them, knowing the theory of butterfly effect and chaos by his nature and use them to effect things by his energy for destruction, reading minds of people, talking to nature and even understanding the meaning of the voices that animals make, powerful telepathy etc. Beside all of these things there was something more strange in me, ability to remember some places and "historical happenings" but not clearly. also I had unclear visions and pictures that used to come in to my head and whenever I tried to dig them in order to find out what those pictures and visions mean I faced with a wall of light with some colors. later I got more curious and interested at history of Iran, specially the part that relates to Iran before of Islam but I did not know the reason of any of these "Sudden" interests. When I grew up and I reached to 16, that wall started to get destroyed or disappeared and memories from my past lives started to show themselves. Destruction of that wall not only caused the locked memories to get appeared but also it raised my dark side. My ability in learning lessons got reduced day after day and I became an isolated and depressed person, anyways during the time I learned how to manage my life but still the pain that those days put on my heart still exists. The color of that wall and the "sense" and picture that you get from it when you try to dig your memories,in my opinion, beside of all the psychological reasons that it may have, represents the nature of the angel that has done it to you, if this is what happens to you when you dig your memories. As a example, if you get a sense of being under the sunshine and a warm and holy yellow-golden light from that part it can represent the Archangel Jophiel.