A dude on the internet

"you can never truly waste my time, to me your time is always worth mine"

Just trying to pull through life same as you, in time things can get better but they can also get worse, but do your best and live how you want, I won't tell you how to live happy because that is defined by you. Whatever you do, however you do it, so long as you are happy and helping others, i am proud of you.