Come on Gmod-TTT and play on Dinkleberg TTT. Be sure to type !motd
If you are reading this stop creepin on me. The VAC ban is from MW2. Just message me and stop being so creepy.


I make mistakes, but try not to.
I like being alone.
I like not being alone.
Love ... Is a dangerous game.
I know life goes on w/ or w/o me.
I know life is short,
But I act as if i'll never die.
I try to be understanding,
but relize no one was ever with me.
I know what it is like to hurt,
But i dont know what its like not to.
I have seen and lived through hell.
I enjoy having people close to me, yet seem to push them away.
I have lost my best friend.
I have lost my Dad.
At one point it used to hurt less to make myself bleed.
I try not to judge people,
Because i know how much it hurts to be judged.
I know pain, and can relate to yours.
I used to be shy because I didn't want to be judged.
Now I am so numb I do not care.
I know drugs don't make the pain I have go away forever.
It only temporarily does.
I try to hide myself in plain site.
Many people claim to know me, yet very few do.
I feel when people truly know me, they treat me different, like i am a victum.
Instead of being treated as their friend, i am that friend who is in need, who is suffering.
To me that is pity, and pity gets no one no where.
I think tomorrow will always be there.
Yet there are times i dont want it to be.
I know that friends stay.
And best friends stay longer.
To enjoy the sunny days there must be a few rainy ones.
I drive a stick -♥♥♥♥ yes-
I love to dream, of a place that isnt reality.
Sleep is my ultimate escape, cant be hurting if im sleeping.
5 years ago i didnt think i would make it 5 years.
Happyness is a mindset.
Feeling numb nothingness is better then the pain.
I used to dream, now i wake up to cold sweats and nightmares.
Video games give me a similar escape from it.
It is NOT better to have loved and to have lost, than to never have loved at all.
I like being Ash, he is my 'ideal' self.
I do not attempt suicide.
If that ever happends there would be no going back.
Computers amaze me.
Family does come first.
Yes, friends are family .
I have a dog.
Life is a complex game for me .
I have drawn more short straws than long ones.
I do aspire to win the powerball :P
I can buid PC's. Like my own.
I know that at any moment it isnt the last moment. Life always moves on.
*powerball money would go to help dink fix the server. ;)
When i make you happy that makes me happy,
When i dont i get sad.
Trust is everything, plz dont lie.
You cannot please everyone.
I think second chances are a powerful tool.
When I am stupid bord i think of ponys and rainbows, to stay not so bord.
I do kick serious ass on TTT,
at points i even amaze myself.
It would be cool to be Super Admin.
I know death is death.
When you die you no longer exist.
There is no magic place where you will live forever with everyone who has ever died.
As a kid i hated my life and wished i was older.
Now that im older i realize that getting older makes you hate your life 0% less.
Living in the moment is where you want to be.
The people who have it the best in every situation often make the best of every situation.
For anyone who says money cannot buy happyness, you clearly take everything for granite.
12-21-15

RIP The old me 2016

Tic Tac Toe, If she sexts you first she a hoe -2018

-2024
I enjoy life like I've never had :)

-2024
Played like a toy, humbled and hurt.