And, God, I'd love to talk but look just not right now
Got some sh*t to say, I just don't know how
Spent every night alone just f*cking dreaming of you
And love, I know you're hurting, it kills me too
And tell me why it always gets so hard
Getting out of bed feels like I'm heading to war
And if I saw the reaper, know he'd take me for sure
Breaking down alone, I put my head to the door

I don't get it, I thought I was better
You said it, so why can't I remember?
I'm sick of living like this, I hate the medicine
I'm sick of crying like this, it never f*cking ends
At this point, think I've died twice
Really good at f*cking up my life
And I don't care if you love me, I just need you to lie
Life goes on, I just don't wanna try
I got used to all the pain inside