i consider this comment below as normal behaviour

I (26m) consider myself straight. I don't find men atractive at all. But I just can't stop downloading grindr and sending pics of my butt and ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ to strangers and talk dirty to them.

I just like that they like me and they invite me over to their houses. As soon as I jack off I feel ashamed of my self and delete the app.

I don't know whats wrong with me but just can't stop. Is this normal?

I just came home from a night club and a group of drunk cis women harassed me. One of them tried to lunge at my crotch saying she wanted to make sure I'm a real girl. None of the people around me tried to help me. I'm crying and I can't sleep. Still processing all the transphobic ♥♥♥♥ they yelled at me. I live in a fairly queer friendly area by the way. It doesn't get better. Never did and never will

This all started when I was 4, He would start beating me for arguing with him, he sent me to a mental institution when I was 6 because He didnt like that I was questioning him a lot, only stayed there for a week but I was on my own the whole time. He would beat me with a metal bat a lot, spank me with a metal file, and use said metal file to shave my knuckles to the bone because he was bored. He would choke my dogs infront of me till they passed out, and beat one of them with a dictionary to teach me to not disobey him. and at the age of 5 he begin ♥♥♥♥♥♥ me monthly, saying it was normal for father and son. Once i turned 10, I learned through a few things and the internet what he was doing was wrong, told my family, we left quickly, lived in a safe house, yadayada you know the classic abuse story.

please be gentle my parents are in the room next to us

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im a kid and he tried touching me.