Compulsive Observer, Expressive Obsessive
Is writing your love language? Characters are precious and deserve souls, to teach us about ourselves; even if it takes time to realize it
I want to be friends with talented, understanding people; and the international. It’s so nice to interact with perspectives from other worlds.
University of Toronto Engineering

I'm a bit initiation impaired so I may need ushering, and I'm grateful for the help

Dragons... feel like such classy and important creatures, one can't just simply "make" one; it must be a well thought out process. To be a sophisticated dragonfolk...

I'm very emotionally repressed and when I witness someone expressing an interest I also have, I am filled with turmoil, and a desire to be around them.
After meeting you a little bit first, I'd roleplay. I'm a little traumatized over it though so I need support to get through it.

I used to keep the mental illness profile content around for the sake of preserving history and being transparent, but all it did was exhaust me when re-reading it, and provide resistance to fulfilling actions. Maybe I will have a real, social, "advertising" profile like the ones I see around

In that case;

Videogames, I traditionally gravitate to play what can keep my mind very focused and distracted to a task, like some fps pvp games, games with turn-based micromanagement. Usually multiplayer, I gravitate to be around people.
I tend to "put up with" frankly mid Roblox games too much, because of this mild social aspect. But I love the game design and coding discussion those games prod my brain with, due to their jank.

But what I have been playing "traditionally" is not what I want to keep playing. I enjoy story stuff a lot more (Open worlds, RPGs, MMOs, even simple exploring), even if its like traversing hot coals to get started.
Creatures, Characters, stories of them, breathing them to life; to teach us something, maybe. It's hard for my mind by default, to accept "enjoyment" and "for fun" as reason to write. "It MUST include work and struggle to be valid". But being with someone else who isn't burdened like this, validates my underdeveloped feelings and sheds weight off my existence. What I'm saying is, it means the world to me to be invited to do anything art related.

If you are someone who has no problem expressing themselves through arts, enjoying and especially making, I'm going to gawk in awe. And hope inside to dear life that I can be around that energy long enough to influence me.
When I do it alone, its nigh impossible, and my nervous system goes into something similar to shock and a cold sweat. But it feels healthy to get through

im 21, bi, looking for friends or more

If you talk out of your ass about issues far beyond your scale of life/knowledge thats lame af
Let’s focus on self-enabling, self-actualization instead. Art.

(TF2 thing)
Have you tried cl_first_person_uses_world_model 1?
bind "space" "+jump; +use_action_slot_item"
bind "w" "+forward; +use_action_slot_item"
bind "a" "+moveleft; +use_action_slot_item"
bind "s" "+back; +use_action_slot_item"
bind "d" "+moveright; +use_action_slot_item
(saved for tf2 winter noisemaker)

A part of my heart is unkillable, and sometimes I wish it would die and leave me alone