I used to have horrible porn addiction. Tired of this, I made a promise to myself to jerk my meat off exclusively to eroge when I came across a h-scene in the story, without the use of archive function. More context and meaning, an actual story behind the act helped me keep the promise, and I successfully managed to replace my ailment with a lesser one. This was some time ago, and ever since, I have kept beating it only to eroge.

Last week, a girl I met online called me over to her house. It was going to be my first time, so I was anxious. But when I went there, my member didn't seem to work and was insistent on staying at a weird state of 20% erectness and 80% flaccidness, no matter the amount of foreplay. Thankfully my partner was understanding and didn't complain about it much. I honestly wasn't even that excited about it. When I looked at her on the bed, it felt like there was no meaning behind the scene.

To my surprise, she just shot me a message few days ago saying she was available this sunday too and I got to meet her yesterday again. This time, during foreplay, I told her to give me a second, went to the bathroom and, using my phone, pulled up the 9nine episode 2 h scene where he's ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ her against the wall. Anyway, it was my first time but everything fortunately went well. She texted me after and said that she felt neglected while I was in the bathroom, but all in all, it was fine.

Anyone experienced anything like this? I know that the solution is to initially take help from eroge, and gradually reduce the dosage and shift the focus on the girl herself, but it's such a weird thing to experience, and I don't have a consistent partner to begin with. Maybe just putting a paperbag on her head and making her call me oniichan would have worked too.