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游戏：口味很杂，有太多喜欢的游戏了，各类游戏都有玩 正因为都有玩所以玩得都很菜
音乐：最喜欢纯音乐，尤其是钢琴曲
我喜欢 [music.163.com]的音乐，这是我的口味
我喜欢的我喜欢 [music.163.com]，强烈推荐，这可是我的宝贝哦
动画：CL一生推。其实优秀的动画也太多啦，根本数不过来，最近特别喜欢吃糖，你给我发糖，你就是好番，这里是 追番列表 [space.bilibili.com]
也欢迎给我安利你喜欢的东西

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我喜欢：
喜爱游戏的
口味相近的
可爱的
友好的
以及，特例

我不太喜欢：
个人资料隐藏的
打不过就开挂的
自以为是的
喜欢嘴臭的
以及，特例

另外：
加好友请先留言，好让我知道你是谁，好给你备注
人都有不同的爱好，各有各的喜好，我不会干涉你，但也别随意评判我
我嘛，虽然好说话，很少有能进入我讨厌名单的人，很难被惹火，但是这也不是来招惹我的理由
一般24小时高强度在线
平时给我留言如果不是我忘了那肯定会回，找我聊天如果我不忙的话也会回

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没有了(￣▽￣)~*






















还想看嘛？(〃'▽'〃)























那就让你看吧(#／。＼#)

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但既然这里是Steam，我就说些和游戏有关的吧。
Well, since we are on Steam, let's use some game analogies.

游戏一直以来都是我最热爱的东西，是我之前一直坚持下去的支柱，可是现在，在我的内心世界里，这最坚实的支柱也开始崩塌了，表现出来就是，游戏再也不能再带给我快乐了。
Games have always been something I really loved, and it has always been what kept me going, like a pillar of my life. But now, even this strongest pillar starts to crumble, by which I mean that even games can no longer bring me any enjoyment.

我失去了抽中SSR的喜悦，失去了肝的动力，失去了氪的目标，失去了对欧洲的向往，失去了对通关的成就感。
I can no longer feel the joy of getting an SSR; I've lost the motivation to invest time or money into achieve the goals that needs to be achieved; I've lost the anticipation for the wonderful lucky moments I occasionally encounter during gaming; I've also lost the sense of achievement after I've completed a mission.

曾经喜欢做的事想做的事甚至是我的梦想，现在都不想去做，想画画拿不起画笔，想打游戏挪不动鼠标，我就像被什么东西缚住了身体，动弹不得。
Now I don't even have the desire to pursue the things which used to love and used to be my dream: I can't pick up a pen to draw; I can't open a game to play. It feels as if my body was trapped by something, making it difficult for me to move.

你们可能永远也不会明白这是一种什么样的感觉。 当然我更希望你们永远也不会有这种感觉。
You may never be able to understand what it feels like. And, of course, I hope you will never experience this feeling yourself.

我好像与周围所有人都隔着一层厚厚的玻璃。仿佛只身处于一片深渊之中，周围都是黑暗的，安静得让人心生寒意。
It is as though I were surrounded by a thick layer of glass, separating me form everyone around me. It is as though I were in a deep abyss, filled with darkness, freezing cold, and scary quietness.

当然我也努力过，努力想要挣脱这深渊的束缚，真的努力过，但是我看不到哪怕是一丝丝的亮光啊。这种安静的黑暗实在是太可怕太强大了，我可能最终会有一天被这深渊吞噬吧，无声地吞噬掉。
Of course I've tried. I've tried to break free of imprisonment of this abyss. I've really tried, but I cannot see the light, not even a single shred. This quiet darkness is so scarily powerful that I fear I might be consumed by this abyss, without even a sound.

现在我失去了感知外界环境的能力。
Now I've lost the ability to sense my surrounding environment.

失去了对一切事物的兴趣。
I've lost interest in everything.

失去了行动的能力。
I've lost the power to act.

失去了所有的希望。
I've lost all hope.

说了这么多，最后呢，我还是要感谢一直以来在我身边陪伴我的亲人朋友们，谢谢给我鼓励让我相互依偎的病友们，谢谢陪我水群的群友们，谢谢陪我一起打过游戏的好友们，谢谢G胖让我有了这样一个全是游戏的平台。我必须要谢谢你们，谢谢你们给了我一段很欢乐很美好的记忆，真的谢谢你们。
I've said a lot. In the end, I want to thank my family and friends, who have always been accompanying me the whole time. Thanks to those who, despite experiencing the same kind of difficulties as I am experiencing, have been providing me with encouragement and support. Thanks to friends from the chat group, and those who have gamed with me. Thanks to Gabe Newell, who created such a wonderful platform filled with wonderful games. I must give thanks to you all, for giving me a wonderful, happy memory. Thank you again and again.


2020/12/21 我觉得我快不行了……
2020/12/25 氯硝西泮好甜