Oprindeligt skrevet af CtenosaurOaxacana:

I am struggling.
I would rather be kind,
but when every human interaction fills me with more contempt,
it's difficult to want to care anymore.
I am no saint, but I can only take so much crap.

We've all been there buddy but the more you become bitter and less kind no one wants to be your friend but that's entirely up to you

I agree that we've all been there and struggled at times with toxicity from ourselves or from other players. It's true that the more bitter and less kind you become the more people will be less likely to be your friend. Everyone enjoys kindness and everyone deserves kindness in return however we are not entitled to certain acts of kindness. Perhaps it's worth exploring what you want from friends and searching for those qualities in people if you feel used. If it's more people being verbally abusive perhaps it's worthwhile to find ways to unstress let it go and not carry those statements with you.

Are these interactions avoidable? Are they personal?

Oprindeligt skrevet af Grand Matriarch Todd of Sim City:

We've all been there buddy but the more you become bitter and less kind no one wants to be your friend but that's entirely up to you

Yeah, no shit.
But being kind for the sake of being kind,
and getting nothing in return for many years?
Not even friends?
Hard to care after awhile.

Oprindeligt skrevet af You-are-Not-Alone:

Perhaps it's worth exploring what you want from friends and searching for those qualities in people if you feel used.

I'd like friends that care for who I am,
but that'd require humans being capable of wanting to BE friends
with an 'unusual' human in the first place.
Have not met such a person yet.
I don't want to go into detail about my shitty issues, sorry. Just want to vent.

Oprindeligt skrevet af YuukiRito:

Are these interactions avoidable? Are they personal?

If I keep myself isolated, they become less personal and more avoidable.
At the cost of my sanity and happiness, but oh well.

Relatable.

Oprindeligt skrevet af CtenosaurOaxacana:

Oprindeligt skrevet af Grand Matriarch Todd of Sim City:

We've all been there buddy but the more you become bitter and less kind no one wants to be your friend but that's entirely up to you

Yeah, no shit.
But being kind for the sake of being kind,
and getting nothing in return for many years?
Not even friends?
Hard to care after awhile.

Oprindeligt skrevet af You-are-Not-Alone:

Perhaps it's worth exploring what you want from friends and searching for those qualities in people if you feel used.

I'd like friends that care for who I am,
but that'd require humans being capable of wanting to BE friends
with an 'unusual' human in the first place.
Have not met such a person yet.
I don't want to go into detail about my shitty issues, sorry. Just want to vent.

Oprindeligt skrevet af YuukiRito:

Are these interactions avoidable? Are they personal?

If I keep myself isolated, they become less personal and more avoidable.
At the cost of my sanity and happiness, but oh well.

Not for the sake of being kind but for others to know your still human and you should at least care but why should i tell you what to do

I appreciate that all the responses here have been kind & considerate.

Oprindeligt skrevet af Foxpile:

Relatable.

Thank you for understanding. I hope you are doing well.

Oprindeligt skrevet af Grand Matriarch Todd of Sim City:

Not for the sake of being kind but for others to know your still human and you should at least care but why should i tell you what to do

We all need to be reminded sometimes of what we should or should not do,
at least when it comes to bringing harm to others.
I like to believe kindness is the best trait any human can have.

Oprindeligt skrevet af CtenosaurOaxacana:

I appreciate that all the responses here have been kind & considerate.

Oprindeligt skrevet af Foxpile:

Relatable.

Thank you for understanding. I hope you are doing well.

Oprindeligt skrevet af Grand Matriarch Todd of Sim City:

Not for the sake of being kind but for others to know your still human and you should at least care but why should i tell you what to do

We all need to be reminded sometimes of what we should or should not do,
at least when it comes to bringing harm to others.
I like to believe kindness is the best trait any human can have.

Exactly

no one is perfect and like you said , you can only take so much until you lash out on a poor soul who was the wrong person at the wrong time
but its ok we all make mistakes
one thing i found that helps me dealing with it is that you take a step back and let your self take a breather before you say or do something back

i will be nice if you are nice online.

へー、どうしてそんなにいつも優しくしてくれるの？