i ♥ sadists

being sad and having to pretend to be happy makes me sick. just to make friends to end the neverending cycle of friendlessness. being blocked by 10 people for being too boring. sexist manhating girls that diss and neg on steam to feel better about themselves. being insecure because of former abuse and being bullied because of it. trying to ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ an innocent bystander with a butterfly just to end up in penitentiary where i get beaten up every day by a thug. there is no meaning to live and no meaning to die. all of it makes me think of Hannibal rising where he carves 'sing' into his victim before flaying and eating him.

life. ends. with me.

Hellow :3

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQw4w9WgXcQ

woo