Welcome To The Guild!

Hey, been a while huh? I feel like I need to tell you guy's something, I don't wanna post a video about it as it's unrelated to my content, is a bit random for those that havn't followed me and I've made that mistake before...

Anyway, I feel as though I owe you guy's. I made a lot of promises that I didn't keep, when I was down you guy's tried to lift me up and when I was up you saw the difference in my content, and made it rewarding.

Which is kinda the thing...

I was recently diagnosed with type 2 rapid cycling bipolar. As a quick lesson, it gives me uncontrollable mood swings, ranging from extreme depression, to feeling like the smartest, sexiest, most energetic person alive, hyper focused and creative, yet sporadic. Sometimes both at the same time. I'm now getting the help and such that I need, and can even spot the sign's myself when in the midst of a swing, making it a lot easier to deal with. So that's all good :)

The reason why I bring this up is because I often used to start large projects and never finish them. I still have hundreds of unfinished projects sat on my hard drive, and who know's how many times I tried to do daily video's, despite the idea being unfeasible. So this is an apology, for making promises I couldn't keep.

It's quite funny actually, I went through some of my video's and you can tell from the way I talk when I wasn't myself. The problem was I thought that the hypermanic me was the real me, it was when I could get the most done, when I was the most fun, when I was most active.

So, what now? I've gone through my channel and unlisted quite a lot of video's, leaving just a few that I like. I'm actually considering deleting it altogether, but it's quite interesting to see the different sides of me, my videos acting as bizarre little time capsules. There definitly wont be any video's for a while, I feel like even attempting would be a dumb idea. I'd quite like to leave this part of me behind.

But who know's. To those of you who stuck around, on here, as viewers and some of you as friend's, thank you so ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ much. I don't think I'll ever be able to thank some of you enough. At my worst this really was one of the few thing's in life that I enjoyed, and without it... idk.

This page is going dark now, if you wanna say anything feel free to add me.

Bye guys <3